(Where I left off) ‘’Charlie I would love to change you but it’s up to Bella….
‘’Dad I said no!’’ Bella stormed out of the room. I sighed and followed her, when I got outside she had just turned the corner going into the main hallway. I followed silently behind her until we got outside, and she sighed. ‘’Edward you know I don’t want to change him. Why does he even want to be changed?! He hated all of this in the first place, w-why now?!’’ I took a deep breath I knew this was going to be hard on her so I pulled her along till we got into the tiny garden with one bench and a couple of daisies and no people, that’s when I sat her down and held her hand, I told her in a slow voice ‘’Charlie is afraid that he might die’’ I hesitated. And took another deep breath and continued ‘’he was thinking about some things, and he went to the doctor the other day, and they told him that he had pancreatic cancer, unfortunately the doctor said he could do nothing about it, he will most likely live past four years at the most five years’’ Bella;s eyes went wide-eyed and said, ‘’no’’ the tears came I never got used to watching her shed tears as a vampire ‘’NO no no NO!!!!’’ she sobbed ‘’Oh please no!! C-c-Charlie! Dad!’’ she got up, I got up too but she had other plans, she wanted to run. ‘’ No Bella you cannot tell him…’’ she took a shuddering breath and looked me straight in the eye ‘’why not?’’ she said her voice menacing. Ready to run ‘’because when he did it he knew I was listening, he was already aware. He wants to be with you love’’ I pulled her into my chest ‘’your father is dying and his love isn't'' she sniffled ‘’so you think I should let Carlisle change him?’’ I nodded my head ‘’would you rather he suffer for five years knowing he is going to die, or three days where he can spend an eternity with us’’ She broke down completely no joking. she actually fell onto the cement and dented it a fraction of an inch. "Edward! why?!" she was shuddering, tears pouring out from her eyes, but I noticed that the dead veins were enflamed. I could take care of that later, i thought and I lowered myself onto the ground with her. "Bella, Love, its okay..." . I moved her hair out of the way, wiped away her tears and brought her soft face up to mine, and kissed her. She sniffled like a human and she responded to my kiss. I grabbed her arm and pulled her up and carried her to the bench she sat in my lap crying until it stopped I looked down at her, and her tears where gone her red eyes and runny nose was gone, all traces of her crying was gone.
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Charlie was now awake from his coma, but he has been thinking about the need to know stuff a lot, I told Bella he had been thinking about it, she was shocked as so was I . Since Jacob turned into a wolf in front of him he didn’t want anything to do with what we where but when he heard Bella and Carlisle talking about changing Erik he went from not wanting to know to I need to know. ‘’um Bella and Edward can you come over here?’’ Charlie asked in a horse voice. We were sitting in the chairs by the T.V while he was pretending to sleep. ‘’yes Charlie?’’ Bella asked in a worried voice. He gulped down one big gulp, ‘’w—‘’ he cleared his throat. ‘’well I wanted to talk to you about um the needing to know stuff’’ he looked deep into Bella’s topaz eyes Bella sighed ‘’dad are you sure you can handle this I don’t want to over tell you something and make your blood pressure go up it’s not good for your health’’ Charlie kept his face nice and calm when really he was thinking this may not be good for my health but I need to know. He smiled at Bella ‘’of course honey I am perfectly fine’’ Bella sighed (Help me Edward!) she thought, I sighed ‘’Charlie we are vampires’’ he burst out laughing Bella narrowed her eyes. ‘’dad Edward is telling the truth’’ Charlie’s face went blank. ‘’your serious aren’t you?’’ Bella nodded. ‘’so like what? How can you go out in the sun aren’t you supposed to like I don’t know turn to ash?’’ I chuckled ‘’that’s just stereotype Dracula and all of that it’s all fake’’ Charlie’s face was shocked, but his blood pressure never went up, ‘’so Bella is a vampire?’’ Charlie asked Bella smiled ‘’yes dad I am but were good that’s why our eyes are golden we don’t drink human blood or anything we only drink animals’’ Charlie’s eyes widened a little bit but went back to normal. ‘’so this means y’all are all vampires?’’ Charlie asked, Bella nodded ‘’is there anything else I need to know?’’ ‘’well dad Edward can read minds, jasper can control your feelings, Alice can have visions, I am a shield and Nessie is half human half vampire’’ Charlie looked between us. (so all them times I was rude and thinking some not so nice stuff Edward could hear me should I feel bad about that? no I don’t think I do I mean he should have seen Bella. His mind brought up a mental picture of Bella. I wonder if) ‘’no Charlie Bella would never stand for it’’ he sighed ‘’I guess I’ll just have to ask her, Bella can I be changed?’’ Bella stood up and grabbed Charlie’s hand ‘’dad I wouldn’t ever want to put you through that pain so no’’ Bella said softly at that time Carlisle walked in ‘’hi Charlie how are you feeling today?’’ Charlie just looked at him looked back at Bella than before I could stop him he blurted out ‘’CARLISE WILL YOU CHANGE ME!’’ Carlisle looked shocked ‘’Charlie I would love to have you in my family, but it’s up to Bella…
Hey guys I hope you enjoyed this entry the next entry will pick up where I left off <3
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Were I left off I looked at her wide eyed ‘’I um don’t know I’ll have to ask Carlisle’’….
Bella was sitting by Charlie when I heard his thoughts for the first time tonight, he could hear what Bella was saying and he wanted to answer her back so bad, but he couldn’t remember how to he couldn’t talk it was like he was awake he could see everything, and hear but he couldn’t talk, I wonder how that works? I thought to myself I mean he is in a coma so how can he hear and see everything but he saw it he saw me standing by Bella with my arm wrapped around her, I was still thinking how could she cry, I mean really it isn’t possible she is special but no vampire has ever cried, Carlisle walked in, ‘’Bella I need to talk to you about something’’ she nodded ‘’what is it Carlisle?’’. ‘’well Bella I know Erik is your friend and stuff, so I am giving you a option, you see he is bad the surgery didn’t help at all he won’t make it past tonight, but I can change him if you want’’ he looked at her with his deep topaz eyes she let out a little whine ‘’Carlisle i would love for you to save him but, we can’t save everyone I hate making the decision on whether or not he lives or dies, but I don’t think I would ever turn anyone unless they asked’’ Carlisle nodded, ‘’very well Bella’’ she went and sat by Charlie again ‘’ Carlisle I need to speak to you’’ we walked outside ‘’what is it Edward? Is everything okay?’’ he asked me. We walked a little ways down the hall before I spoke ‘’I think Bella has a new power’’ Carlisle’s head snapped up he had a smile on his face ‘’what did Bella do?’’ he asked I didn’t know how to explain it wow that’s a first. ‘’well Bella cried’’ I said it just like that plain and simple half of the reason because I didn’t know why or how. Carlisle stood there gathering his thoughts ‘’this isn’t the first time a vampire has cried real tears when I was with the Volturi there was a case like this, her name was Mandy she could feel the humans emotions around her, kind of like jasper except she felt them physically if someone around her broke their arm, you would have swore she broke her arm, she hated feeding on humans she would go crazy every time she fed, she tried to never feed on a human again, I told her about my life style but she still wouldn’t listen she wouldn’t try she was losing herself slowly every day until she broke week and killed her brother, she begged for Aro to kill her but he wouldn’t so she did what she had to do she lifted up a car and threw it into another car’’ I couldn’t believe my ears so vampires can cry wow who knew?!
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Well guys I am sorry I haven’t updated in a while, it just that a lot has been happening. Alice had a vision a week ago about Erik in a car crash, Alice didn’t get to see the person that he hit, but she had a pretty good idea of who it was here is what happened.
Bella’s phone rang around 1:00 am, ‘’hello this is Bella’’ I had a pretty good idea about what the phone call was about, but when Bella’s face went blank I knew it wasn’t news about Erik, at that moment, Alice had a vision, Charlie was driving down the road when a car swerved into his lane, and hit Charlie head on, Erik got thrown out of the windshield his body hit the tree, blood was everywhere there was skin on the tree, Charlie was still inside the car but he was pretty bad, his head was split open and the air bag knocked him out his door was smashed in, on him than the vision ended, Alice came running down the stairs the same moment Bella hung up the phone, ‘’C-Charlie was in a car wreck’’ her eyes were filled with pain, Bella and I got in the fastest car we had which was Alice’s car a 911 yellow turbo Porsche, we were in forks by 3:30am we couldn’t see Charlie until he was out of ICU, Bella pretended to fall asleep on my shoulder while we waited, I whispered into her ear ‘’Charlie is out of ICU’’ she didn’t move until I pretended to wake her up when the doctor walked in, ‘’hi I am Dan your father was in critical condition, he is stable know and can breathe on his own’’ ‘’thank you what room is he in?’’ Bella asked. ‘’he is in room 519’’ Bella nodded she started moving forward I grabbed her hand and held her there about the time Carlisle walked in Dan ran over to him ‘’Dr, Cullen I didn’t think I would ever see you again it’s been a long time’’ Carlisle nodded ‘’indeed it has been a long time, but I must hurry up and get to my patient’’ Carlisle said, (whoa Carlisle still looks the same and so does his son and his daughter in law, what do they drink I need some of that stuff, I mean Carlisle is supposed to be 45 now and still looks in his 20s and his son is supposed to look 26 and still looks seventeen) the guy thought, Carlisle stopped in front of us, I am going to be doing surgery on Erik, and then check on your father’’ Bella nodded we walked in the door behind Carlisle a girl behind a desk smiled at us ‘’hello may I help you?’’ Bella smiled ‘’um we are looking for room 519?’’ the girls smile dropped ‘’oh um walk straight than turn left you’ll go through a door, than keep going straight than turn left again, you’ll see a sign that says come sit with us and eat, go past that turn right, and then walk down the halls a little ways and the room will be there’’ Bella nodded ‘’thank you’’ (oh I feel bad for her I saw the guy they were taking in that room it didn’t even look like he would make it past tomorrow) the girl thought. Bella and I got to the door, I stopped mid track and grabbed Bella’s arm pulled her to me in a hug and whispered ‘’be prepared for what you’re going to see’’ her eyes filled with that pain again we walked into the room and there lay Charlie, his leg up in a cast his right arm in a cast and his ribs wrapped up, a huge cut going from his cheek to his jaw a swollen black eye, and his head wrapped up in a bandage with blood soaking threw, Bella gasped ‘’oh Edward he looks bad he can’t die, he can’t die on me’’ she started sobbing I pulled her into my arms ‘’honey it’s going to be okay, and Carlisle can change him into a vampire if he gets worse’’ she started to cry more, well our vampire cry, that’s when I felt something wet on my shirt I pulled her back and she had two tears running down her face, what how could this happen maybe she had a lot of pain in her maybe that’s why she had tears, her eyes looked shocked I brushed away the tears they weren’t warm like when she was a human they were ice cold. ‘’how can I cry?’’ she asked I looked at her wide eyed ‘’I um don’t know I’ll have to ask Carlisle’’ well diary I got to go but I will update you on it more in the next entry
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Well Bella and I are on our way back to New Hampshire, we went on a second honey moon to Esmee Island here is what happened.
Bella was worried about riding in a plane full of people because this is the first time she had been in a enclosed space with so, many people. This time when we got on the boat she wanted to drive so I just sat back and relaxed, she is a pretty good driver, she just didn’t know how to park the boat so we almost hit the dock but other than that everything was good. I grabbed the bags and we walked into the house, it was almost like Déjà vu we went for a late night swim and got back inside around 3:00 am she was so amazed she could see under water we went so far out that we saw a shark, we swam by it and it never attacked us we went back to shore, and went into the house Bella went to go and change into something she said she had a surprise that her and Alice found so I waited on the bed reading a book, when she walked out she was wearing a black lacy lingerie that looked like the one she wore the night we conceived Renesmee, we really couldn’t do nothing until night so we went and hunted around the forest, once night time hit Bella wanted to go dancing so we went dancing I must say she is a really good dancer now, every guy was looking at her she had on a red silk shirt that hugged her curves, and black leather pants, we where the last ones on the dance floor, still going at 5:45 am in the morning we would have still stayed but the sun was fixing to come up so we left we passed some drunk humans while we were on our way back to the boat. ‘’hey honey you want some of this’’ a guy said I went to untie the boat. ’’yo I know you heard me do u want some of this?’’ the guy asked again Bella started to say something but the guy grabbed her butt, ‘’oh wow your nice and firm’’ Bella turned around and grabbed the guy around the neck and pulled him off of the ground but before I could do anything she already was holding him, to her drinking his blood I started to pull her away but she attacked me, so I let her be she drank all of his blood and when she looked at me her eyes were starting to turn red.
‘’i-i-I am so sorry Edward I shouldn’t have let my anger get to me i—‘’ I pulled her into my arms and told her everything was going to be okay. She didn’t talk the whole way back to the island, as soon as we got there she pulled out her phone and called Carlisle ‘’Carlisle i-I I am so sorry I didn’t mean to drink that guys blood’’ she kept saying that over and over Carlisle told her everything was okay and that he wasn’t upset with her, and that we should stay on the island until Bella’s eyes turned into their regular color, so it wouldn’t upset Renesmee she hunted every day, it took three days for them to go back to regular color oh I guess I better go the plane is landing.
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Well guys I decided to post a diary entry that is before I knew Bella and before Rosalie was changed we were on our way to the denial clan, as we got there Tanya was fixing to leave to go hunt so she asked me to go with her, I haven’t been hunting in a while so I went with her, I was watching her hunt thinking why couldn’t I just love her what’s wrong with me I mean she is beautiful she has long curly strawberry blonde hair. She dropped her dear and stood up winked at me, and lunged at me knocking me to the ground she was straddling me, her long locks flowing down her face her eyes glowing with excitement she bent her head down and whispered ‘’ are you sure you don’t want me?’’ I looked at her I looked deep in her eyes trying to force something but it just wasn’t happening I grabbed her waist pulled her up kissed her softly on the cheek ‘’I am sorry Tonya I just don’t feel the same way I don’t know what is wrong with me, I wish I could love you but it just not enough’’ she sighed grabbed my hand I didn’t pull away ‘’isn’t there something I can do I mean I have showed my interest in you b-b-but you don’t return it’’ she looked at me her eyes filled with pain from the rejection , her head leaned closer to mine her lips a inch away from mine, but she didn’t kiss me she just put her forehead to mine, ( what did I ever do, I have showed my interest in him, but he hasn’t returned it do I keep trying , or do I just let it be?) Tanya kept repeating in her head on and on, later that night I was looking up at the sky the clouds were covering the stars, it seemed just like my heart there were no stars in my world all covered up by darkness, pain and loneliness, Carlisle could feel that he was starting to worry about me I tried to tell him everything was okay but he never listened, as I was laying in the cold snow when Tanya sat beside me for a while before she said anything ‘’Edward?’’ I looked up at her ‘’um ugh I know you can read my mind but I thought I would ask anyways, why don’t you find me attractive’’ she blurted out any other guy would have been surprised but not me I already knew it was coming up, ‘’Tanya It not that I think you are beautiful it just that I think of you more like a sister not a lover ’’ I lied, Carlisle and I were on our way home when he smelt blood a lot of it, we ran to it, and it was a girl she had long blonde hair, her clothing was ripped up , her hair had chunks missing she had a bruise on her left arm starting to show up she had a hand print across her face that was solid red, as we grew closer I could hear her mind she was waiting for death to take over, she was cold and was in a great deal of pain, we now could see her body laying limp on the road, the snow started to get harder she was shaking now, and she kept thinking about a man named Royce in her head she kept repeating I am such a fool how could I not know he was drunk, he was slurring his words when he yelled come over here rose you have kept us waiting a long time, at that moment only thing I could think about was why was he waiting for me, as I walked over his breath hit me, and at that time I knew he was drunk, his friend yelled at him I can’t see her she has all of that stuff on he pointed at her clothing, the guy named Royce had a smile on his face, he grabbed her hat pulled it out of her hair, making hair come out with it , he ripped her jacket off of her and I am not going to write the rest diary. Carlisle grabbed the jacket wrapping Rosalie in it, and then picking her up and running full speed to our house, he ran her into the attic, right when Carlisle bit into her wrist his thoughts came up (I am making Rosalie for you Edward) I gasped realizing what his mind just said ‘’ Carlisle I don’t even like her you should of heard the snared comments in her head about us!’’ I yelled.
Dear diary it is day two of Rosalie burning alive, or shall I say changing, I can’t believe Carlisle would do this to me, Rosalie is screaming right now begging for us to kill her, Esmee just got back from hunting she feels so bad for Rosalie, she wants to do something to help her, and right now Esmee is mad because I was going to take Rosalie up on her offer to kill her, but Carlisle was there to protect her, it is my time to watch Rosalie while Carlisle hunts, so I guess I’ll talk to you in a little while.
I am back diary, and like yesterday morning Rosalie was still begging for us to kill her, I hate being there when someone changes not just because they are in so much pain, but because I can hear there every thought so it is like I am burning with them, I wish I couldn’t read minds tomorrow Rosalie will wake up and then she will decide if she wants to live with us or go out on her own.
Rosalie woke up she didn’t believe us, but once she found her throat burning she knew she was something, as her thoughts came up about running away, I gripped her arm tight she flinched away I realized that she was never going to trust any guy ever again, Carlisle explained our diet and told her she could go her own way, but she felt uneasy after that part of being alone she didn’t want to be alone so she took Carlisle offer, but it turns out she hates me more than I hate her, so I guess Carlisle can’t force us together, I guess I will go diary Rosalie wants to go hunting again…
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‘’love Edward<3’’
Today is Jacob’s birthday we don’t have anything special planned out he is going to get a Cullen crescent from Carlisle and all of us, and Renesmee is taking him on a date, Bella,Alice,Emmett, Rosalie and me is giving him a blood red Ferrari.
We decided to wait to give him the presents until him and Renesmee got back from there date, Bella couldn’t wait to give him the Ferrari, she has been waiting two months to see his face when we give it to him, Jacob and Renesmee walked through the door, and everyone said happy birthday everyone even gave him a hug even Rosalie, Emmett and jasper think of him as a little brother, that they can still make blush.
Carlisle handed Jacob the Cullen crescent, Jacob had no idea what it was so he opened it slowly, he finally got it open and when he saw what it was his eyes widened, and his thoughts were (why did they give me this I am not there family, i am not even a vampire) I smiled and just shook my head. Jacob loved the Ferrari his eye where wide when Bella pulled the sheet off of the car. Bella got Jacob a cake that only him and Renesmee ate, she was putting in the candles when she said ‘’oh dear Jacob you are 23 how does it feel to be older than dirt?’’ Bella smiled, ‘’ me old as dirt than that must make you older than dirt cause your 25’’ Jacob said, Bella gave him a look that said, say one more word and I will kill you.
‘’I am sorry I don’t have a lot to say but in the next entry I am sure I will thank you for read Edward diary <3’’
‘’love Edward<3
Hey diary it is Claire here, I missed you I haven’t written in you for a while now, but something great happened tonight, let me tell you the story.
We were at Emily’s and Sam wedding reception, oh it was so beautiful, flowers ever were, lights wrapped around trees ,Bella was joking about getting to use them lights again, Emily looked stunning her dress was so beautiful, she was beautiful, the scars she had from that bear attack, where gone, her whole face was glowing, if I say so myself she looked better than Alice, Bella, Esmee, but not Rosalie.
Alice asked me, to go get the cake knife from the house, so as I was walking out, quill came up to me, and asked if he could walk with me, we were walking every now and then our shoulders would brush up against each and others. I looked up and found him staring at me, I blushed ‘’what are you thinking about?’’ he asked me, I sighed ‘’ I was thinking about when we were dancing and how you moved so swift so graceful’’ he smiled it takes practice. If only he knew what I was thinking about, how he was built, how I felt in his arms as we danced, how every time he looks at me my heart about jumps out of my chest, how I wish he would kiss me, wanting the feel of his full lips on mine so bad, but knowing it will never happen, because he can’t possibly feel the same way, about me I mean I am only fourteen, fixing to be fifteen.
We walk into the house, I grab the knife, and ask him if he is ready, he nods, we walk out the door, when he grabs my arm sending a warm tingling sensation down my arm, I shiver for a moment, then he says ‘’ look at the stars aren’t they beautiful?’’ I smile, and look up, my heart pounding, as I think about him kissing me, I am sure by now that he can hear my heart, pounding, I look back at him, thinking, of all the ways I could pull him in for a kiss, they say girls aren’t supposed to make the first move, but how are they going to know if u don’t make a move, I am about to kiss, him thinking one two three, then I start to sweat, thinking but what if he doesn’t but my one two three was up, I looked at him, ‘’quill?’’ he looks at me ‘’ya?’’ I look into his eye, as I start leaning in closer to him, he surprises me by doing the same thing. I wrap my arms around his neck, and pull him in, getting his musky scent, and as our lips meet my whole body got a warm tingling sensation. There was so much passion, that it kind of scared me, I mean this is my first kiss, how are first kisses supposed to be?? His tong traces my lips, and I respond by parting my lips a little, bit but then I gasp and pull away, he smiled ‘’you know I have been waiting along time to do that?’’ he said, I looked at him ‘’wa-what do you mean?’’ I ask, he smiles ‘’you remember the stories I told you when you where little?’’ I nod my head, and then I gasp as I realize what he was saying, I was his imprint, ‘’s-s-so you are a shape shifter?’’ he nodded, ‘’b-b-but how I thought they were just legends’’ ‘’not so much honey’ he said, as I was still staring at him in shock, ‘’ this means tomorrow will be your first bomb fire, meeting, they tell awesome stories’’ he said, I gap at him ‘’who is the alpha?’’ he sighs ‘’out of all the questions you ask this one, if it makes you happy Sam is the alpha’’
‘’um we better, hurry up and get the cake knife to Alice, before she sends a search team out for us’’ we walked hand in hand, when we got there, Emily looked at us questioning, I walked up to her, and whispered in her ear, ‘’ congrats aunt Emily’’ she nods Alice grabs her and pulls her to the cake where Sam is waiting, they cut the cake, and start the dance up again, Quill grabs my hand and pulls me to the dance floor, and whispers, I love you Claire, I can’t help but blush, he twirls me around, I put my head on his shoulder as the slow dance starts, and just relax in his warm embrace, every one threw rice and bird seeds at Emily and Sam, she looks at me as she gets in the car, and winks at me, I just smile and wave.
Quill drove me home, but before I went inside, he spread out a blanket and asked me if I wanted to look at the stars with him, we laid there and talked, and laughed for hours, it was just turning 3:00 am when he walked me to the door, and kissed me, I felt that warm tingle again from my head to my toes, this time when he traced my lips with his tong I didn’t pull away I responded, he tasted good, he sighed ‘’you taste so good’’ he said, I whispered through my lips ''you do to'' he pulled me into him holding the small of my back, I wrapped my fingers in his hair, and pulled him as close as I could get. We both pulled away gasping for air, and so diary, here I am now, writing away, remembering everything so vivid, wishing I could relive this night.
