''Bad days the third part.''

As you know from the last entry Renesmee, has some mixed feeling about Luke, and Jake, so
i figured maybe she should write down all of her feelings. She's agreed to it so i hate to say this 
but Renesmee is going to be taking up this post. And don't worry about me all is well this just means the next time we catch up i will have a lot of things to talk about i bet this is getting monotonous i'll let
Renesmee take over now. 








Well Diary, I don't know what to say maybe i should start off like 


Dear Diary,
It's been really confusing these past few days... 
Okay no, no, no this sounds really lame.
Okay um how about this.
 So this guy i go to school with.
   sort of has a crush on me, and he ugh sorta 
kissed me. 'Yeah, yeah i know what your thinking' 
but hey this is a diary and no one is judging me right?
At least i think. Maybe this was a bad idea after all. 
No Renesmee, it's not beside's i promised dad i would 
write down my feelings. How hard can this be  anyways 
i mean my dad isn't sensitive and he has no problem 
  jotting down his feelings. So this should be 
fairly easy for me. Oh god i think my worst nightmare
just happened i'm boring you diary aren't i?






Okay so let me get back to the story. 


Luke, kissed me Jake, punched him period. 
Their is nothing confusing about that. 
What i'm confused about is.... I really 
  i mean i really liked the way Luke tasted/ felt 
it was so unusual  
what am i saying! My heart belongs to Jake. 
But it was different. Humans have such a 
intoxicating taste. No Renesmee get your
head out of the gutter. Okay First off 
i am not a slut okay i don't normally go around
liking two guys at the same time.


Its time for Pro's and Cons! 


Jake, pros
He's My soul mate
He excepts  me for who i am 
He loves me unconditionally
He's Tall and brooding 
He can hunt with me 
He knows what i am 
He can protect me 
He makes me feel excited, Happy, daring, beautiful and above cloud nine 
He's made me who i am today
He is really romantic and a good kisser 


Con's 
He has a temper 
................................




Luke pros


He's Unusual
.......................


Con's 


He's Human 
I could lose control 
.................................






It seems i have more cons than pros for Luke i guess my feelings aren't 
confused after all. 
       Guess i better head over to Jake's I'll tell you everything when i get back
- Renesmee 

'well i gotta go''

''i'll write soon''

''thank you for reading Edwards diary''